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2010-04-08T16:58:00.001+08:00

exams are coming and hazel is still feeling so lost..... life's getting more and more boring day by day man haha

2010-01-19T20:00:00.002+08:00

time really flies and i am in year 3 now.... after attending a few career talks i suddenly realised that i hae to start thinking about internships and my future career paths. looking back, all these thoughts seemed so far away when i first got into nus.

went for my beloved mr harold tan's lecture today and what he said during lecture struck me quite abit. thanks to the internet, we are more connected than we were in the past. he reminded us that companies today actually go up to facebook and twitter when they were deciding on the candidates who applied for an interview for their companies. hence, it is very important that we do not put anything that is controversial online that will backfire. suddenly i felt like i should not be so active on facebook and blogs anymore. haha

2010-01-14T16:04:00.002+08:00

school has started and i am back to nus again haha... hazel feels like a freshy in nus on the first day of school man.....

taking 6 mods this sem and it seems really scary at this point of time. year 3 work seems like a huge jump from year 2 and i am starting to worry whether i can cope with it. time flies so fast and i am so close to my final year now.... which means i have to start thinking of my fyp, internship and my future career path... argh so irritating!!! everything seems so bleak -_-

2009-12-16T19:37:00.002+08:00

it is snowing again!!! it has been snowing for a few days... the snow accumulated on the streets are so thick that i have problem differentiatig which is the pavement and which is the road cos everywhere is white and whe i say white it is pure white like cream....... so lovely!!! i have completely no idea what i am stepping on... i just hope that i dont end up dropping into the lake...

hazel feels like a staggering peguin with all the thick clothes and the problem walking on the snow. firstly cos the snow is thick and soft. secondly, because it is slippery... i kept losing balance and felt like slipping. it feels exactly like my first time learning skating. but thank god i learnt skating before. so i not how to prevent myself from falling. i haven see people slipping and falling flat on their face on snow a few times here is really hope the next will not be me haha...

exams are over and bro coming up next week.... it is getting colder here day by day and finland is alot colder as compare to stockholm... god bless us!!!

2 weeks more and i will be back in hot tropical singapore.... hope i will get use to the climate fast as no where in singapore the weather is compatible to the scandinavia!!!

2009-11-01T04:36:00.001+08:00

finds peace and tranquil in these photoes.... they are really beautiful!!!

taken during the trip to brussels and amsterdam

2009-11-01T04:27:00.002+08:00

back from brussels.... photos are up on facebook... but those weren't the nicest cos i did some amendments using picasa... but those can't be uploaded on facebook... too bad... feeling so exhausted now that i dont feel like moving...

thank god i have one more weekend to recharge before he comes and we will be off to tour again.... going finland and copenhagen... super ex... but think it will be fun... willl be super duper broke after that though haha...

looking forward to 15 nov.... counting down whee!

2009-10-19T00:06:00.003+08:00

it has been so long ever since i wrote anything here... paper tomorrow and i am not sure what i have studied. cooped in the room for a few days studying already... life's getting quite boring... looking forward to the next weekend as i will be in belgium and amsterdam... hope it will be fun... argh.

whee!, he is coming up to sweden in nov and we will be going turku, helsinki and tallin muhahaha... looking forward to it seriously.....

afterwhich i will have to catch up those stuff that i missed in that two weeks and prepare for exams again for two weeks!!! then my bor will come up and we will go off for tour again.... then home sweet home!!!

beginning to miss home food!!!!

2009-09-23T02:45:00.002+08:00

hazel is damn pissed..... the curtains the caretaker promised to put up for us are not up yet after 3 weeks!!!! me and my neighbours have weird smell coming out from our drainage area in the shower rooms despite the fact that the caretaker had come to fix it...firstly, it stinks up the whole toilet. secondly, i have to constantly keep my toilet door close as it will stink up the whole room. thirdly, i can't shower at ease as the metal plate will vibrate when water enters it.... fourthly, it is utterly unhealthy to stay in a filthy environment....

hazel is frustrated with her school work as well.... cos she simply can't make sense of the stuff she is reading.... sadly.... she took up modules from master courses just because they are in english and happily think that they are bachelor courses... argh!!!!!!

2009-09-16T01:52:00.002+08:00

photos of island grinda up..... sch is getting really boring... the contents are like getting more and more difficult for me to cope.... haiz.....

daddy's here is stockholm last night finally haha..... went with him shopping and city tour today so i woke up super early to meet him at his hotel... he bought me a dress from H&M which looks pretty... at least something i definitely can wear when i get back singapore haha....

twisted both ankles and i am like hobbling around now argh.... hope i can recover in time to go for tour on sat!!!! i want to go to the castle me and crystal planned long ago!!!!

2009-09-04T03:11:00.002+08:00

in sweden now for about one week....

nice neighbours... i mean really nice. firstly, they are from spain, italy, france etc. so i have a very good mix of exposure. secondly, they are very helpful and friendly. thirdly, they are really happening.... i have them partying along the corridors like every night.....

have been doing cooking and laundry for everyday and i simply dont' know what to cook already....

i am beginning to hate school... not that is a bad place. it is really beautiful. but the lessons are so pack that i have like 4 hours of lectures of the same module in one day!!!! i have problems with one of the core and i have to re-map... but seriously, it has 6 lessons clashes and now i don't know which to go.... haiz...

what have i gotten myself into man!!!!

2009-08-20T18:49:00.001+08:00

终于明白心痛的感觉，为什么会如此？我想不能再有一刻停留，否则我真的会泥足深陷。。。

2009-08-05T21:22:00.002+08:00

ok my blog is so not updated that i don't know where to start haha...

i should really get started on my packing for sweden.... as the date draws near, i can feel the strong inertia that keeps me from moving out of my comfort zone... but i know there's no turning back now... now that i have gotten everything ready to go.... argh life's so irritating.

attachments build up when you stay in a place for long and this is not a good sign as it keeps you from doing anything to severe it.....

you must keep moving on hazel...

2009-07-06T19:21:00.004+08:00

back to civilisation haha quite long ago... too lazy to blog about it.

anyway, went china yet again this time round i went to zhang jia jie. is some ulu places but i can't deny that the scenery was awesome. especially along the 3 gorges. it was spectacular....

back to the mundane job at sco.... the past few weeks were horrifying busy cos my librarian wasn't around.... i had a shock of my life cos i dont' remember it to be this busy..... well things change. now i know why she needs an assistant... one man show is a big no-no...

2009-05-10T11:42:00.002+08:00

it has been a tiring yet fulfilling week

monday: went threading at rupini's it was an interesting experience when the thread touches the skin

tuesday: went shopping with nick in the morning and afternoon in town. nothing much to buy as i was searching for my mum's present. had sun with moon for lunch. it was not bad but very filling though. met him at 4 plus. went over to the swedish embassy. it was a horrible trip as we didn't know where exactly is the place. we were sweating and cursing about that place under the hot scorching sun. when we finally reached there, we realised that the opening hours are from 9-12 on weekdays....wth i would like to have this kinda job too man... after which we went for a light dinner at PS as we both had a heavy lunch. watched Wolverine....oh man i am so obsess with the gambit now. he is so awesome. i kinda got 电 by him at the scene towards the end of the movie when he saved wolverine from the falling rock and turned back. wah... he was hot man!!!! cotton on was having sale. bought a shawl for 5 bucks... wanted to try out the shorts. 2 for 30 bucks..... consider cheap but the queue was so long.... sianz... hope the sale is still on..

wednesday: went to hairlight my hair in the morning haha.... kinda had problems with my gate to such an extent that all of us were trapped out of the house. thought had to find the locksmith. thank god my neighbour came and save the day. went to the flyer as he as the tickets... got a capsule for our own all thanks to the nice lady working at the boarding area. had peranakan buffet using his feed at raffles card. it was 50% so it was quite worth it.

thursday: went to the gym with him. the facilities at the yishun safra was not bad.... when i reached there, there was this guy who had been runnin for quite long. there were few others as well running and training. i started to wonder why they are all here at this hour of the day. don't they have to work? after which we went down to the jacuzzi downstairs. oh man if i had a choice, i will never want to get out of the water. the water was so warm and nice. the massaging of the water was so comfortable especially after a workout.

friday: nothing much spend the whole day at home slacking

saturday: went for mother's day lunch with him, brothers, mum and grandma in the after at peach garden. the dim sum lunch was very filling. after which went home to meet my family to go over to the lakeside fishing village for dinner.... the food was good though the place looks a bit old and ulu. not much of the entertainment there so my dad brought us to the jurong hill near jurong birdpark. i was wearing the super high heels and he made me climb up the bloody stairs and slope. worse was that this is the first time i seen mosquitoes that active. moreover, due to the close location to jurong island, the air there was horrendous. i can constantly thick and strong smell of oil there. is very unhealthy.

sunday: went to the optician and ge my specs change. that stupid coating came out and my degrees increase argh...... going over to granny's house later whee:)

sian:( breakouts after the exams argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-01T10:19:00.002+08:00

let's move on.... let's move on...

the first two papers were utterly disappointing. that's the first time in NUS where i was literally stuck when attempting the papers..... sucky semester with mad and sadistic lecturers out to slaughter people.

oh well, all died together!!!!!

Didn't get URA scholarship... no news from others as well....

wondering whether i can go sweden now.... that stupid swine flu hits sweden already.... if it doesn't gets better i bet i wouldn't be allowed to go argh!!!!!!

i guess i really need to go over to freeze my cap... this sem gives me a very bleak feeling...

2009-04-22T18:38:00.000+08:00

曾怨过晚了生翅膀
时间错放太多
蝴蝶万象上空飞过
暗自梦里躲
如细看蜕变的旅程
承接你我往昔
沉默独自内心倾听
那静待气色
曾听说也会生翅膀
时间秒秒再拖
无奈日落日出经过
我愿望太多
谁听过蜕变的奏鸣
如韵未未说清
回望藉藉夜空忆记
变幻未退色
循环中
千变化不怎可操纵
星光心里种
一天蜕变高飞天空
最美现蝶翅中
循环中
一句说话一章一节
用光阴相送
历尽百世一生倾心爱意
未悔触碰

曾爱过却要心里藏
谁已错过对方
曾历受着内心束缚
爱在梦里躺
如细诉蜕变的旅程
无法退去记忆
延续浪漫互相呼应
印象未退色
循环中
千变化不怎可操纵
星光心里种
一天蜕变高飞天空
最美现蝶翅中
循环中
一句说话一章一节
用光阴相送
历尽百世一生倾心爱意
未悔触碰

若是爱过不惜牺牲放纵
愿再触碰

2009-04-09T15:10:00.002+08:00

is SYF again.... and suddenly i feel so detached from the band world and somehow i wished i could be part of it again... even though i might not be able to play again. even by knowing the results and discuss with my ex band mates will bring back lots of memories be it good or bad...

suddenly, i realised how i badly miss the days when i spent hours and hours practicing aimlessly, not realising that i one day will miss that kind of lifestyle.....

i am once again lost..... something is seriously missing in my life though i get all what i want now....

2009-03-15T13:07:00.002+08:00

what a day what a day.....

went for 3D movie yesterday yea!!!!

my bloody valentine haha with my parents and him haha....

long story. it was kinda impromptu cos initially i wanted to stayed home and study... but oh well i didn't watch 3D movie before in my life so ya haha

stupid daddy made me and him paid for our own tics cos he said he wanted to have 2 person world with my mum argh....

wanted to eat sth good but too bad he eating veg this week so had to go foodcourt haiz... so decided on republic...

when we got out of the house just nice super duper heavy rain... so could only eat nearby my house cos there's no shelter in town so not convenient. frankly speaking dinner was kinda horrible...

went for the movie. and the 3D specs was quite cool... it looked like a sunglasses on me lol.... nth much abt the movie to talk abt apart from the mindless killings and gory scenes. but seriously the 3D effects are interesting cos when the articles in the movie start flying towards you... instinctively you will duck haha..

at the beginning of the movie.... there were some humorous effects though... there was a loud thud sound coming from the show and two gals just screamed and in fact it was just a sound effect to make the movie more intense and nth happened...so the whole cinema started laughing at the two gals so malu... thank god i wasn't the one haha

throughout the show i got so irritated cos my 3D specs quite dropping... i wonder why it just refuse to balance on my specs argh..

after the show my dad suggested that we go somewhere for a drink... frankly speaking the design of Lido is really bad... we had such trouble just getting into TCC and Dome cos the escalators simply don't lead into the shops at the sides. we could only rely on the internal escalators in Isetan. there wasn't space in tcc so ended up in Dome.

ordered the strawberry smoothie and it was not bad.... ate an apple crumble with gelato which taste just like apple pie.... damn

come to think of it.... i really missed the apple pie which my dad used to buy for me when i was really young. it was the best apple pie i ever tasted.. till now i can't find back that taste anymore and the worse thing is i don't even know the name of the shop... guess it will only be left in my memories and i can only taste it in my dreams. so far the closest taste to that apple pie i found is only the apple strudel from Ritz

looking back.. i seemed to miss a number of dessert taste.. the creme brulee my dad used to bring me to eat and i tasted any same or better ones anymore... creme brulee nowadays are really horrible. the waffles from waffle town in bukit timah plaza owned by my dad's friend.... too bad he is no longer selling it.... according to him, he is currently supplying the powder use to make waffles to swensens... howeve i find that it is not as good as the past....

haiz... seems like lotsas stuff can't be found once it is lost....

that's why one must always cherish what they have

2009-03-11T18:05:00.003+08:00

i am complaining more often than usual nowadays i realised and i simply hate this side of me.... but i noticed it is quite common around the campus as it is the project period.... everybody has the infamous black face that is as dark as the thunderstorm cloud......

deadlines are drawing near...

finance and geog on 20th march

finance test on 25th

valuation on 30th

marketing on 2nd

headache!!!!!!!!

2009-03-08T13:54:00.002+08:00

WA.... very pinkish... i love it haha

sch's boring... proj is piling up and is killing me!!! argh

2009-02-03T10:57:00.002+08:00

happy happy birthday:) hazel is a happy gal....

thanks dad and mum for the key pendant and necklace.. of course the wonderful dinner at furama...

thanks him for the wallet and the beautiful surprise at tomoe...

thanks his mum for the fabulous dress

thanks xin and les for the hand bag, belt, hair clip and earrings... those are really my style or fashion.. haha

thanks the skaters for celebrating for me and the tasty swenden's ice cream cake....

thanks all the t38 buddies and gals for wishing me happy birthday!!!!

in short i feel blessed!!!!!!! muacks.. french kiss to all lol:P

2009-01-06T20:51:00.003+08:00

我从来没感觉到象今天那么沮丧和无助... 似乎身边熟悉的人都渐渐离开. 为肾么每次都是我要面对这一切. 感觉上有被遗弃,遗忘.....

2008-12-30T20:48:00.002+08:00

mourning day..... my little fav kitten dropped off the window.. is like the second cat... damn sad.. cry

2008-12-25T21:28:00.001+08:00

what a christmas haha good food and nice presents!!!! hazel is a happy gal:)

2008-12-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

《祝福》

爆竹钝响在沉重的天

幽香在飞舞的雪花间

弥散

魂灵，地狱

有没有，在那边

竹篮中盛着空的，破碗

木刻似的脸

忽然发光的眼

千人踏万人跨的门槛

故事早已经漠然，厌倦

弃在尘芥堆中的悲惨

隐约听见

爆竹声连绵不断

祝福，天地圣众蹒跚

“无聊生者不生

即使厌倦者不见”

-heart wrenching story!!!

2008-12-19T09:43:00.002+08:00

getting fatter and fatter argh.. all the good food and buffet.. i really have to stop eating.

finally bought my pair of heels but i still can't find a proper nice ballet pumps after sooooo long why!!!!!!!!!

this ho passes so quickly and i practically achieve nothing.. oh apart from spring cleaning my room. thanks for coming to help me pack haha

got offer to go sweden for sep... still thinking whether to accept cos firstly it is really far, secondly i have no idea who is coming along with me. thirdly, it is very expensive. AH sick argh:(

2008-12-08T18:35:00.002+08:00

things to get:

heels
pencil case
pants
makeup remover

things to do:

chalet bbq stuff
birthday celebration
shopping!

argh busy and broke:(

2008-11-30T10:55:00.003+08:00

the sky is as bleak as my mood, my dreams, my future...

i just can't seem to picture it anymore...

why can't i ever have peace in a place where i am suppose to find solace, harmony and bliss...

2008-11-09T17:13:00.002+08:00

why... tell me why does it always have to be like that.... why is it that everytime when i begin to forget and let go, you will say things that force me to start thinking and wondering again... is like falling into some trap which i'm never going to escape...

how... what am i suppose to do? someone please enlighten me....

2008-10-28T19:09:00.002+08:00

went for xin's birthday party last friday.. it was pretty fun though i can't really do much... swings always bring back fond memories hahah

had a stupid fever which spoils all my mood in doing anything.. stuck with porridge for the past 5 days yucks.. but it is good cos i can slim down heheh

gotta new little kitty added in my family tree.. his name is snowball.. a pretty nice breed- persian cross so his fur and tail is super long... so cute...

2008-10-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

life in school is getting more and more mundane...

i fear for my results this semester seriously. the future seems so bleak now...

might be going for SEP but still waiting for val and michelle to decide. mapping sucks

2008-10-04T11:38:00.002+08:00

there are still kind souls around...:) it was pouring yesterday. my mum only had one umbrella and there's 3 of us. my, mum and myself. so my sheltered my mum across the road first then he will come back to me. while waiting for them, this women walked pass and she offered to bring me across... i am so touched!!! haha:)

2008-09-19T22:57:00.003+08:00

MAMA MIA GALORE!!! woah that was a mad and frenzy night... WHAT A NIGHT!!! i could feel the heat once i stepped into the cinema. the groove was totally in me and i felt like dancing and singing with the music.. it was like sitting on a bullet train and travelling back into the ABBA age... taste of the mambo and retro days.

I have had not enough of it man... the songs were going on and on in my head and i just can't get it off..

ok.. i was just too high over MAMA MIA. some sugar perks in my boring and mundane life haha...

2008-09-16T21:48:00.003+08:00

hazel is a lazy bugger. recently she just loss the motivation to work or study. what she does is to laze around at home watching shows online.

mid term test is coming and it is 6 weeks to finals... i seriously need to buck up and start working man...

2008-09-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

changed my phone to w910i. the previous phone's batt got short circuit man. my arm was experiencing numbness after using that phone haha.

got the photos from xin long ago... i think the soft toys are really cute!!!

2008-09-04T16:42:00.002+08:00

hazel is desperate.. she is stuck in the tutorial room nwo and she is unable to excuse herself for the washroom!!!!!!! her bladder feels like bursting now ah!!!!!!

nowadays school is becoming so routine that she dreads it seriously. everything is so expected that nothing is out of the ordinary now... goes to school, turn up for lessons and goes home and rot. the only thing to look forward to is saturday skating and the weather has been such a spoil sport lately.......

2008-08-24T18:30:00.002+08:00

olympics is over.. can't bear for it to end somehow.. strange isn't it... still i think gymnastic and table tennis is still the highlights of the events...

2008-08-21T17:59:00.002+08:00

“I’d rather wake up in the middle of nowhere than in any city on earth.” - Steve McQueen

came across this sentence on my tutorial that day and it sort of rang a bel in my mind.

Having grown up in a city like Singapore, i can pretty much say that i am a urban dweller. Everyone knows how it feels like living in a concrete jungle and knows the benefits of staying in one. However, we also understand that there are always opportunity cost to anything. The stress and pace of city life has pushed many to the wall leaving them panting for breath. Despite the fact that i distain the crowdedness and pace that plagues the city life, i can't deny the fact that life in the city is what i prefer more. Being brought up in a city with the luxury of reasonable good living conditions and access to advance technology and leisure entertainment, i don't think i will be able to survive a simple life in a countryside as much as i yearn for it.

Finally I got a taste of techno ever since since school started. Frankly speaking, the new bar chor mee is really horrible. Though i am not a particular fan of bar chor mee, but this stall really does not live up to the name it should be.

2008-08-19T17:36:00.001+08:00

found a new skin.... too bad it doesn't feature eyor my favourite character sobs sobs.. and i just realised the date and time is wrong and i have no idea how to change it haha

2008-08-19T16:27:00.002+08:00

yeappies.. got my pretty prezzy from mich today.... it is a blue chunky necklace!! reminds me of cj even though that is not my alma mater haha. But seriously, those were the bet days of my life aren't they:) wished that i could rewind the time and return to the tiny cosy classroom of ours and continue with the throwing of markers and eating in class. i am sure my beloved 2t38ers miss my random thousand decibel screams lol! i hope....>.<

2008-08-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

it is only the second day of school and i am already physically and mentally exhausted. i seriously wonder how am i going to pull through the whole of the six months...

NM2220 sounds intimidating now. i think i really have to put in extra effort if i want to do well. buying skates soon. the current pair is really killing me; in fact my toes haha.. broke again...

2008-08-05T12:49:00.003+08:00

it was the last day of work last fri.. felt kinda reluctant but oh well life has to go on. fell sick straight after work but nevertheless went for skating.

sneezing my head off and i really felt that the rate i am blowing my nose, it is going to drop out in any minute.

is bidding again and i seriously hate it...why do i always have to fight for a place with my meagre points!!!!

2008-07-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

一京，一道，二府，四十三省。这就是日本了。一道指的是北海道。北海道又名虾夷，面积占日本国土约5分之1(1,121.12平方公里) ，居住着约1,839,586人，是日本最北方的岛屿。位于北纬40度33分至45度33分，东经139度20分至148度53分之间，与其同纬度的都市有加拿大多伦多、美国波士顿、意大利罗马、中华人民共和国沈阳。和人口密度绸密的本州岛相比，北海道原始的自然、原野、一望无垠的土地具有独特的魅力，在生活中可仔细玩味四季不同的变化。

刚刚从北海道会来，老实说确实收获不浅。也去世我第一次到日本吧，对她总有些向往和期待。第一天是在飞机上度过的。那天，在机舱内读过了一个漫长的夜晚。第二天抵达东京Narita机场，我只能用“头昏脑胀，神智不清”来形容我当时的感受。想来，在机舱内睡的还是不好吧。没关系，经一计，长一智，没识过又怎么会知道呢？过后，又达了一个多小时的飞机到北海道。一下飞机，导游九龄我们到一个城市，名小樽。这个城市将会是我毕生难忘。他就像爱丽丝历险记里的梦幻成，但同时，他又非常的宁静与安详。来到这，似乎就像与世隔绝，所有的烦恼就在这一瞬间烟消云散。

另一个最让人难忘的阴该酒是富良野吧。一眼望过去，是一望无际的鲜花。五颜六色，让人不禁陶醉其中，忘了自我。迎面的风吹来，飘着一股淡淡的馨香，让人感到非常的舒服。富良野，天是碧蓝的，云是雪白的，山是翠绿的，阳光也很柔和，是个难得的减压去处。

人常说：黄山归来不看山，九寨归来不看水。“是的，自九寨规来，所有的名山大川在我看来确实是不过尔尔。看到了流星与银河瀑布，更是鉴定了这句话的含义。但是，抛开一切成见再加点想象力，这两个瀑布还是有它们的一番风味和独特。毕竟，在这繁华的大都市已是难以看到自然的山水了。。。

北海道独有应该非温泉莫属了。每个人坦然相见，刚开始也许会感到害羞，腼腆，但是一到了温泉里就将一切诛之脑后，向天真的小孩在水中戏嬉。

2008-07-10T19:40:00.001+08:00

why am i so clumsy... that's the third slipper i broke in like 3 consecutive weeks... ah!! is it something wrong with the way i walk!!!!

2008-07-09T19:54:00.002+08:00

for a moment today i kind of come to think of how we young people take things for granted most of the times... we do not cherish what we have or who are actually there for us all the time. we are masters of procrastinates and we never come to realise that life is short and that there might not be a tomorrow awaiting... and then, that would be the time when we wallop in regrets.

as we grow older, we will begin to understand and treasure our loved ones more than we ever did. people like our family and friends... the fear of losing them gets stronger each day as time passes...

so, never wait till tomorrow!!!

2008-07-09T19:52:00.002+08:00

有人曾问，这是上有天涯海角吗？还是，它根本就不存在。。。。其实，他就在每一个相爱的人的心里。

2008-07-08T15:57:00.001+08:00

hate the feeling of being sick.. feel like coughing my whole lungs out. thank god MY met up with me and brought me to the doc... feels warm:)

2008-07-08T15:53:00.002+08:00

为什么。。。原本以为我已经放下一切，却原来还是不能。不知怎么还是会心痛，空虚。。我真的做对了吗。还是在自欺欺人。。。

2008-06-27T12:56:00.003+08:00

back from Hokkaido! can;t deny that the trip was really fun and enjoyable. guessed i gain a few kgs damn it.

somehow, i can't stop feeling impress by their self-discipline and independence. however, this makes the whole society appear somewhat cold. there is no human contact and interaction in the city. is a typical city dwellers society.

the countryside is really fabulous. the scenery is marvelous and air there is really fresh. what is most important is that the people there take things at a slower pace so it is really very relaxing. looking at the farms and the scenery can really make you feel at peace. man how i wish singapore was like that... maybe one day, i will just move to some places like that and never return.

2008-06-07T12:30:00.002+08:00

终于明白当你关心一个人的时候时候，你会和他同喜同悲。会担心，会牵挂。但是，有时候还会像要改变它。不知，这么做对不对，会不会伤害他。。。也许我还在学习包容与接受。。。

不晓得要怎么挣脱自己的枷锁。。。怎么打开自己的心房。。。也许，害怕受伤害吧。。。

went with him to ichiban yesterday... hate falling sick. cos i wouldn't feel like going out... feel sorry for him.. cos he will have to come over and do nothing..other than playing games. but seriously there is really nowhere else we can go cos the weather always forbids... it is so coincidence that every sat when we want to go parks to cycle and skate.. it will be raining... hope it wouldn't rain tomorrow cos there is skating.. i mis flying on the streets with him haha:)

got my pay today.. seems not bad since i only worked for like 11 and a half day haha..

perhaps i have a tendency to compare... 人比人，气死人。。。 better not ba...

work is getting kinda boring... is either damn busy till i don't have the chance to sit down.. or i will have nothing to do other than sudoku... haiz...

2008-05-23T12:24:00.001+08:00

hazel has twisted both her ankles.. like ouch man... argh hope i can skate on sun..

work is boring as usual.. had practically nothing much to do. i spent my time reading magz and doing sudoku.. an acting as if i am very busy.. i hate this kind of life. appareanly i feel like i am kinda wasting my life away here. but oh well there is money being "earned"... i feel real bad about it though... not like i want it but oh well.... everything bhas it's own opportunity cost!!!a

2008-05-18T09:11:00.003+08:00

ok is blogging time. survived one week of work and now i am going into another week... now i know how tiring is working life thought i didn't do much there... however, i gett he opportunity to meet the musicians and can say... all of them have personalities and characters different form normal people like us. maybe that's what make them musicians.... haha

went for dinner with xin lester and my on fri.. ok la didnt really do anything other than shopping around and sitting down to chat... met up with him on sat for skating at bishan park.. hmmm just realised how small bishan park is compared to east coast.

is always nice to reminisce the past and childhood isn't it.. we spent 15 mins on the swing.. whee.. love the swing and it has always been my childhood all-time fav!

2008-05-10T11:42:00.002+08:00

finally everything is over now and i realised there's more things to think about as compare tot he exam period. during the exams, i was like totally isolated from the world and very focus on just studying. however, now i realised i have much more commitments. starting work on mon, i need time for my family and him. of course most importantly also my beloved t38 buddies. where am i going to find the time for all!!

baked the whole day on thur at his house. intended to bake the same cake one for my mumand another for his mum. it turns out that his mum wanted a cheese cake and she got ming yi's AUNT to TEACH us how to do.... i was like diao how come his family members all at his house. i was quite nervous at first.. but somehow after a while i got quite used to it so yup..

met up with xin on fri at amk to buy bra!! yes kinda random and weird. but somehow it was quite interesting. went for yong tau foo with her and lester after that:)

2008-04-24T21:26:00.002+08:00

aww man.. my grand aunt just passed away... seems like everytime my exams period someone in my family dies these few years ever since J2... hmm why like that!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-24T20:41:00.002+08:00

yay! i am almost 2 weeks to my 3 mths break!! at least this is the only that can motivate me to study now... or probably the only thing to look forward to.

i miss the feeling of flying on the road or pavement whichever you call it haha...

i can't believe 1st year ended just like that and according to my seniors there goes my honeymoon period:( i hope not... year 2 sounds scary though... oh well that's life... we have to get on with it right:)

2008-04-14T14:49:00.002+08:00

man, it has been such a long time ever since i blogged about anything. well, nowadays my life just revolves round studying and i seriously hope it will end quick in a sweet manner. i need some life of my own and i reaslised i haven seen him for like ages.. argh this feeling is kinda sucky...

pimple outbreak always sets me into depression. oh well, hopefully it will go off after exams.

was at yu han's house where i spotted this dress online which is so nice and i fell in love with it immediately. moreover, the price is like less than 20 whoo!!!!!!!!! well, since i can't go shopping now, that's the only thing i can do to spoil myself for once haha.. xin must go shopping k on 7th....:)

2008-03-27T17:30:00.002+08:00

phew finally RE 1804 presentation is over... all thanks to geraldine, rebecca, wan su and khai for all the hard work. i think all of us did a good job.

quite disappointed with myself for my 1804 test but well.. it is over now.. just focus on finals.

i can't believe i am like less than one month to finals argh... going really busy... i still have 1803 and 1805 proj dueing soon... hope everything can be done real quick!!! i want to chiong already.. in fact i need to argh...

2008-03-16T20:40:00.002+08:00

it has been so long ever since i last blogged and i presume this will be a short entry cos i probably don't remember what had happened. school is getting more and more hectic as the projects datelines are just round the corner. i am getting to meet up with less and less people. haven been skating ever since sem break starts and i have a feeling i wouldn't be able to skate until end of exams damn.

heard alot of other people. and then and again when we looked and talked about others, it is also at the same time a chance to reflect on ourselves.

sometimes when we think about others, we hope that people will do likewise. but then and again, it is human nature that we are all selfish and only think about ourselves

2008-02-29T22:12:00.002+08:00

okay my extended livelihood for my zen finally broke down on me like ouch....somehow all my electronic devices in my house are giving way... hmmm strange haha:) bought an ipod nano for 199... 4GB somemore. so i guess i got a good bargain lol...

somehow this week passes real fast and before i know school is starting soon. thank god i finished my tutorials like one week ago. feels strange to have nothing to do. staring at econs really bores me to the max....

hazel loves speaking to people. somehow it makes me feel closer to the person and also get to know the person better. furthermore, it is better when we have the common topic so we can share our views. hope i have more chance to talk to people like that

2008-02-25T19:13:00.002+08:00

kept having weird dreams lately.... esp when i am still in band and those people whom i haven been in contact with for very long. mainly the secondary school days. wonder what they meant hmmm

impending stress.... it is mid term break but somehow not really a break man.... spent my day at home studying econs.... lol i seriously hate it. been studying for days but somehow just can't seem to get some of the concepts in mind argh.....

i hate projects...... esp when i have i 4 projs in hands now..... man i need time....i can forsee that we will have very little time for one another..... oh well, no choice man....

shi sei zai qiao da wo xin:O

2008-02-19T19:57:00.002+08:00

went for 2t38's class gathering.... everything feels different now. is it cos we are no longer in the same class? somehow i find it weird talking to all of them now.... just can't bring myself to talk to them.... why like that!!

2008-02-14T20:39:00.002+08:00

yea..... it is valentine's day today and this is the first valentine's day with him.... sadly he has paper tomorrow so we can't go out... going out tomorrow instead:) but i am still elated cos he surprised me by coming my house this morning with a bottle of self-baked cookies and a bouquet of flowers haha.... frankly speaking, his cookies are alot better than those i made:( oops... and he is a guy! a bit weird for a guy to bake cookies for the girl.... but it is weird for a girl to give the guy flower too...lol we are just weird la huh....

well i guess it doesn't really matter to me that much cos there are other ways to express your feelings to your loved ones.... everyday and any day can be valentine's day lol

got a orange daisy for myself though.... act i meant for friends but somehow i have one more extra so i kept it for myself instead...;0

2008-02-13T17:27:00.002+08:00

okay went over xin's house to bake cookies for ming yi and lester.... whee this is my first time baking and i hope it will turn out well.... it was a weird recipe cos this is the first time i see a cookie recipe without sugar....:) the maple syrup smells damn good.... i still have no idea what is the purpose of corn flour.... seems like it is not a ingredient for cookies..... oh well... it was quite fun baking with xin though.... i hope ming yi and lester will not get stomachache after eating it....
xin's bro called us out to buy supper tgt when we were baking halfway haha... had prawn noodles... shit fattening.... played wii with her bro after that.... new game... pirated naruto though..... it is really amazing to see what the characters can do in the game..... haha... slept at like around 2... i am super tired la...
woke up the next morning to bake again... somehow the taste wasn't as good as the first batch we baked the previous night.... beginner's luck i guess.... skipped econs lect.... hazel's gonna die.....

2008-02-10T16:03:00.000+08:00

man i had the most scariest lunch of my whole life today.... went over his house and it was so weird.... first i didn't really dare to step into his house...... then he pulled me in.... his dad is a man of few words.... now i know why he is like that also.... then his dad started asking me to eat the new year tibits.... but i was like really too pai seh.... then after awhile.... he took out the camera then started taking photos of both of us.... argh.... somehow his family treated me like one of them so i felt so weird haha... probably i am just not use to it lol:)

2008-02-08T18:07:00.000+08:00

whee.... happy chinese new year everyone!!! okay.... tiring but fun... fun cos collecting of ang baos.... and seeing relatives whom i only see them once a year.... but my mum's side ones are closer cos always meet up so lots of things to chat about........

ate super lot of food..... practically all junk argh die... fattening....

fell sick just on new year eve.... sore throat and stomach flu.... thank god is now okay:0

he is coming over tomorrow for lunch.... don't know what will happen... and i am going over to his house on sun... wo bu yao.... nervous!!!

2008-02-01T11:30:00.000+08:00

happy belated birthday to myself haha.... many thanks to those that remembered i appreciated it:)

this year was abit different... in fact special and very memorable....... all the stuff and effort he put in for me makes me feel like i don't really deserve it... but oh well it really feels good to be appreciated isn't it:)

somehow, it doesn't feel the same. despite being an special occassion for me i still prefer celebrating with the same old bunch of ppl as well. ppl like my beloved 2t38s.....

am i asking for too much:(

hazel.... be contented!!!

2008-01-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

i think i have the tendancy of worrying and thinking too much.... which is not good..... i should just enjoy what i have now and stop being paranoid...... cherish and be contented..... that's a virtue....

helping people makes one happy:) hazel shall be nice

2008-01-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

argh busy week ahead.... why... and hazel's growing fat....stupid xin kept feeding me..... can everyone stop forcing food down my throat.... haha

2008-01-18T19:17:00.000+08:00

everything seems different now....

sometimes it is just amusing to see the things he does... and the stuff he says:) -hazel's grinning to herself again......

well beauty lies in the eyes of the beholders.....

quite busy this few days..... well i guess i will get even more when we start our tuts... bleah gross.... and why must project proposal due one day aft v day!!!!

2008-01-16T18:50:00.000+08:00

happy happy happy:) hazel is getting high again lol. well lucky year ahead!

2008-01-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

holidays are coming to an end. hazel has done everything except studying how's that sound like:) spent most of the hols with the skating ppl. guessed i got to know them better. spent my day in the zoo:) can't remember when was the last time i went zoo man.... haha.... the weather was fine when we stepped out but somehow it didn't hold and it started pouring:( thanks god it didn't last too long and we managed to proceed further thought it was kinda drizzling al little. nevertheless it was a nice trip. looking forward to sat, national museum:)

sometimes i should just not think too much.... que sera sera...

2008-01-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

recalled this song from west side story. it was the classic song. super nice: it is name tonight:)

Tonight. Tonight.
It all began tonight.
I saw you and the world went away.

Tonight. Tonight.
There's only you tonight.
What you are, what you do, what you say.

Today, all day I had the feeling
A miracle would happen --
I know now I was right.
For here you are,
And what was just a world is a star
Tonight!

Good night. Good night.
Sleep well and when you dream,
Dream of me.
Tonight.

Tonight. Tonight
Won't be just any night.
Tonight there will be no morning star.
Tonight. Tonight.
I'll see my love tonight
And for us, stars will stop where they are.

Today
The minutes seem like hours...
The hours go so slowly
And still the sky is light.
Oh, moon, grow bright
And make this endless day
Endless night. Tonight.

2007-12-28T11:24:00.000+08:00

hazel is indulging herself in the world of books again. feels so great sitting on the bed and spend the rest of the day reading books. well, since there is literally nothing much to be done. one thing good about uni life is that one does not need to worry about completing holiday homework. but ironically, it makes one feels that it is not the kind of life a student should be leading. haha.... i think it is just me brooding over such stuff.

quiet, simple and relaxing life... i believe this is what everyone has been yearning for. but come to think again if i am going to spend the whole of my life like that, how will i feel?

2007-12-26T17:33:00.000+08:00

一剪梅
--李清照

红藕香残玉簟秋，
轻解罗裳，
独上莲舟。
云中谁寄锦书来，
雁字回时，
月满西楼。
花自漂零水自流，
一种相思，
两处闲愁。
此情无计可消除，
才下眉头，
却上心头。

李清照——《如梦令》
昨夜雨疏风骤，

浓睡不消残酒。

试问卷帘人，

却道海棠依旧。

知否、知否？

应是绿肥红瘦。

醉花阴

薄雾浓云愁永昼，
瑞脑消金兽。
佳节又重阳，
玉枕纱橱
，半夜凉初透。

东篱把酒黄昏後，
有暗香盈袖。
莫道不消魂，
帘卷西风，
人比黄花瘦。

声声慢

寻寻觅觅，冷冷清清，凄凄惨惨戚戚。乍暖还寒时候，最难将息。
三杯两盏淡酒，怎敌他、晚来风急？雁过也，正伤心，却是旧时相识。

满地黄花堆积。憔悴损，如今有谁堪摘？守著窗儿，独自怎生得黑？
梧桐更兼细雨，到黄昏、点点滴滴。这次第，怎一个、愁字了得！

2007-12-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

hazy is sick again.... argh. okay should say that i have been sick since 2 mths ago... the doc was saying that i gei kiang so now nose infection. suppose to go for instructor course yesterday but was feeling really sick. must be the stupid medicine. went to sleep until like 6 then i went shopping in town for gifts. bought some clinique products too... spent like 200 bucks i am like shit broke now!!!!

went for church today. is Christmas service today. i seriously love church now. like the ppl in my fellowship. praise the Lord for leading me there. sometimes i really feel that God is indeed always by my side leading me, guiding me. just like how i met Mr Ng, how i ended up in CJ and how i ended up in ORPC...

2007-12-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

went to xin's hse for mahjong.... damn fun. ate lots of rubbish. felt so happy cos cariann surprised us with christmas presents:) god bless her man... the moment i see her i felt like she is some santa clause lol....

2007-12-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

whee... happy happy day! i finally bought my beloved totoro from miniature hobbies:) the last time i saw totoro from miniature hobbies was a few years ago. after which i always miss the shipment. but last sat, miniature hobbies happened to just shipped in the stock yea so i got to choose my totoro muhahah.

feeling sad the whole week for no reason.... hmmm probably the changing of hormones... okay i am talking nonsense. felt better after talking to nick today.

i love going to church on suns now!!! finally got the feeling of "yes, this is where i belong" after all these years. looking forward to each service every week. i seriously felt that God knows what i had been thinking and feeling the whole week and through the sun services summarise the whole week for me. guessed it is what God wanted all along. to be closed and loved by your family members.

ren sheng you xi you bei, you zhe ren.

2007-12-13T22:25:00.000+08:00

okay back:) before today, i literally had nothing to blog about apart from skating and dead toe nails. just came back from movie and dinner with the nussc ppl. watched warlords at amk hub and had dinner in amk coffee city. it was quite enjoyable and we really laughed alot cos we talked lots of nonsense. from ghost movies to personal haunting experiences and yes happy tree friends. my childhood all time favourite! i guess it got me closer to the skaters and i do not feel so left out. the movie is kinda meaningless but well is the process and the ppl that makes the outing fun and enjoyable. eng eng was so high that she almost wanted to skate.... all of us were like wth now? haha well, she lives up her name as urban queen:)

2007-12-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

went to church today and please don't call me mad cos i actually went to the chinese service haha. bu never mind, i found back my sense of belonging under God's grace. sometimes i feel that the way God leads me is quite miraculous and i really praise Him for that. Worhip Him with all your heart!

2007-12-04T15:35:00.000+08:00

yes it is finally GEK tomorrow and i am going to die horribly argh. hazel is deprived of sleep and life. never mind..... is shopping day tomorrow whee

2007-12-01T11:58:00.000+08:00

GEK notes are in front of me and i am sitting of the com. i am perpectually doing nothing but sitting there watching gong zhu xiao mei.well done hazel. you still have 2 papers coming up haha. miss my skates. can't wait to put them on. but there and again i think i would have forgotten how to accelerate on my skates. miss shopping and i miss xin.... can't wait to see xin, mich, cari they all again.......

i wish..... i hope.... i wonder.

wo xue hui le kou shi xin fei... bu yao liu lei. mo mo fa shi...

2007-11-29T11:31:00.000+08:00

if only i could.....

this few days i kept having dreams that are so realistic. those that might happen, those i wished it will come true and those which are my greatest fear. what's happening to me.....

well tomorrow is my third paper and looking back i think i really don't have the courage to look at my results when it comes out.... i really don't like the phrase "what if..." but somehow, it just kept ringing in my ear, crossing my mind....

2007-11-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

rainbow make me happy....:) sometimes i really wonder what it signifies and what's exactly beyond the rainbow.... is there an end to the rainbow? if so what can i expect to find....

sail me to the horizon
sail me far
sail me to a place call home...

2007-11-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

　　

缘分天使Triangel
　传说中爱神有两支箭，一支金箭，一支银箭，金箭是用来帮助有缘份的人们，而银箭则是专门用来破坏缘份的，于是爱神派出了一个天使来阻止银箭，守护人与人之间的缘份。这个天使就是“爱之神”（Triangel）。
　　相传在公元前二世纪的古罗马，有一位善良的女孩和她的男朋友相爱，后来男孩被青蛙魔女勾引，魔法使他渐渐地冷落了女孩。女孩整天坐在窗前哭泣，真情最终感动了上苍，天上的众神令仙鹤叼着这个玩偶——爱之神，放在她的床前，青蛙魔女终于露出原形逃走了，男孩又重新回到女孩的身边。
　　这只来自意大利著名的手工玩偶“爱之神”在其本土深受喜爱。现在，意大利的女孩喜欢将这个爱之神放在自己的房间里，让她 /他守护着自己。据说拥有这个Triangel娃娃的人，就能找到和她最有缘分的爱人。只要把娃娃放在自己房间的任何一个地方，这份缘分就会随之而来，永远不离开你！

cool right... haha but i don't really like dolls though... they are kinda scary....

someone once told me, life is just like chocolates. though you have many flavours but at the end of the day, you still feel the same sweetness deep down in the heart... was pondering over this sentence this whole day.... felt kinda emo after that... i must be going crazy bleah....

is more than meets the eye always remember that....

2007-11-14T15:03:00.000+08:00

i swear i love wei xin.... haha don't get me wrong i am straight... it is just that my alignment for my blog is finally back to normal all thanks to her.... to think i spent like one hour on it while she only took 15 mins..... stupid hazynut rarr...
hazy i officially hooked on crunchyroll..... just found out that it has perpetually everything i want... better than youtube in fact haha.... damn.... i should seriously isolate myself from civilisation man... i am not gonna start studying properly like this.... esp when i am only left with 10 days to my first paper bleah...... exams stinks

2007-11-13T17:38:00.000+08:00

argh.... i am so fed up... spent one hour on my blog skin cos i can't seem to get it correct why!!! saw some of other blogskin but the alignments are like disastrous so have to end up using this which looks at least normal..... nvm shall change it again after exams....

exams

2007-11-05T14:56:00.000+08:00

went for the last skating on sat... had only like 3 hours of sleep the previous night all thanks to my stupid brother.... felt like dying during skating cos my brain was totally not working. didn't go for urban that day!!! SORRY XIN!!! i literally died on the bus after tim alighted. studied for stats and pf on sun..... went to buy hp with my bro and i saw a phone that made me drool!!! it is so cool la... but it is like close to 500 bucks..... so i guess i have to wait argh....
exams are like coming is less than 3 weeks time. time to get down to some serious work le!!!! shall shut myself off from all distractions....... i looking forward to the next skating session as i really want to go urban...... hope by then my toe tails would have recovered.... i am like getting more and more blood clots in my toe nails OUCH!!!!

2007-11-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am really going mad!!!!!!!!!!! wHY DID I LAND MYSELF INTO THIS PROJ GROUP!!!!!!!!!! NOW I HAVE TO CHURN EVERYTHING OUT OF NOTHING..... I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY CAN'T SHE JUST TAKE SOME EFFORT TO DO HER PART..... EVEN IF IT IS JUST A TWEENY WEENY BIT.... GOSH.... I SWEAR I GOING TO SUFFER FROM INTERNAL INJURIES IF THE PROJ IS NOT GOING TO END SOON.... SOMEDAY.... I GUESS I WILL FLARE UP IN FRONT OF HER...... LONG NIGHTS AWAITING!!!! SHE IS REALLY TOO MUCH... CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE..... DAMN AT THIS RATE I DEFINTIELY HAVE TO GIVE SAT'S SKATING A MISS IF NOT HOW AM I GOING TO FINISH WRITING THE STUPID BUSINESS REPORT AND STUDY MY STATS TEST......... I THOUGHT THAT AFTER THE LAW PROJ I WILL AT LEAST HAVE MORE FREE TIME... BUT SEEMS LIKE I AM EVEN MORE PACKED. ALL THANKS TO THIS FREE LOADER.....

2007-10-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

argh.... i am approaching a hectic schedule i just can't stand it... 2 proects duing in like 2- 3 weeks time and best... haven even started on one of it.... gek essay is duing in 3 weeks time and i still don't know how to continue writing my paragraph.... two tests are round the corner and i haven really do anything. tuts piling up.... what the hell have i been doing..... got to start studying for finals which are in like one month's time!!!! super disgusting lah.... everything is moving at such high speed that i am completely loss.... can't even afford to catch my breath....

i just can't help getting irritated my this girl in my project group.... thinking of getting them to kick off the start of our project.... which means we will have to investigate Liang Court... and she freaking showed me her wound on the knee... and that wound is like freaking small... if she can survive walking in sch with all the stairs and uneven slopes, i don't see why she can't go to investigate the project site. moreover, she is going for some sports event today!!!! well, i almost told off in her face that if she thinks that her knee is much more important than the project then so be it... just don't appear. ah!!!!!!!!!!! felt like screaming my lungs out....

2007-10-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

alright.... went for my first urban on sat. frankly speaking, it was fun but scary though. especially when i have no control over my skates when i reach the road junctions and kerbs. it was quite dangerous as if there wasn't anyone there to hold on to me, i would have ended flying out onto the roads.... though i didn't make it to vivo.... i think it is quite an achievement for me as i didn't dare to go or urban the previous times.. hope i can go further for the upcoming urban sessions. when home together with jeanette and it was enjoyable..... thank you jeanette for the companion.... lol

argh! i still can't seem to master parallel turn...... why like that... anyway it is really nice to skate on my own pair of skates... well given that mine is 199 and the club's one is 75 bucks.... haha oh well... looking forward to the next skating session... i still prefer east coast seriously....

i am like so stress out now. cos seems like i have lots of things undone and lots of things to catch up.... two projects in hand now and i haven started on it yet.... 1527 essay dueing in two weeks time and i haven written a word on it AHAHAH someone help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-08T11:28:00.000+08:00

i swear the atm machines hate me!!!!!! why is it so? firstly the three machines in nus denied me of drawing money out from my account cos all the machines don't have money. secondly, the two machines opposite my house denied me from transfering money to rebecca's account cos one of it is out of service and another one happened to not be able to print receipts.... argh so irritating. i don't usually go to the atm machines but when i really need them, they always fail on me!!!!!!!!!!!

i spent like half a day trying to install my adobe cs3 programme into my laptop yesterday after uninstalling them. it is really weird cos the installation kept failing and i got so frustrated... well, it is just not my red-letter day...

oh downloading and burning my girl now... watched 2 episodes super funny... make my time for /ling it worthwhile.... unlike stomp the yard.... i think step up is nicer... found parental guidance on youtube.... watched like 6 episodes already... shall get it form xin one day and the hk police show...

i should stop using the word "shall". i don't get things done when i use it... prob it is not a strong word enough to motivate me to do things....... argh

2007-10-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

okay.... i officially screwed my genes and soc.... seriously it is a pain in the ass.... those that i had studied didn't come out. GE sucks lah.... i totally have no idea wat the questions were talking about. just guessed my way through argh so irritating. there goes one of my A or B.... oh well, no point dwelling over it now. shall concentrate on my other upcoming tests.... hope those will be better...

all thanks to the GEK test today and RE Bis test next mon i can't go for skating today...why!!!!!!!!!! i want to skate like desperately....

2007-09-28T19:26:00.000+08:00

yea.... finally i get down to blog something.... reccess week is almost over and i haven really get down to do anything... hopefully the few days of "studying" is fruitful... damn i hate this reccess week... cos is like perpetually no break. i simply refuse to believe that exams are like round the corner... everything is like happening so damn fast that i haven even got time to recollect the things that happen lately. when i was in jc, i thought that the pace is fast enough but only after i came nus then i realise what a real bullet train is like... argh so irritating.

i loathe the thought of going through 3 weeks without skating..... damn... this is the only time i guess i miss getting blisters on my feet..... i want skating!!!!!!!!!!!!

i might be going to us next year during the summer break... whee. saw the work and travel usa and i hope i can get through the interviews. i don't want to live my life in regrets again... especially after the experience of not going to FOC....

went out with nich and met up with xin for dinner and to buy the clinique stuff.... gosh... seems like we are both obsess with clinique products lately.... no money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

i am gliding on ice!!! but i have to say that i am not good at it cos according to xin i have a very odd pose haha nevertheless, i had a head start with it.

man i am suffocating really.... ever since i start school i have this strong unhappiness and grievance in my heart. i don't know what's wrong with me..... cos to me now everything seems wrong and i don't know what i am so unhappy about. every little thing can irritate me.... i lose the happiness i used to have in cj... i am losing myself to something which i have no idea argh..... can someone tell me what's wrong!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-09T12:48:00.000+08:00

so i finally joined skating as a cca and the best thing is i can't skate for nuts.... lol never mind there's always a start for everything.... as the training session is like twice a week... i am still think whether or not to join floorball cos i believe the training will be quite intensive....hmmm.... maybe i should just take xin's advice not to join afterall i am not the only one for not joining and i don't really need the points....

went for the first skating session yesterday at ECP.... xin and i went there early to teach me how to skate. man i was freaked out even before i started learning to skate. a man helped me out of the rental area down the slope. i felt like riding a roller coaster!!!! argh so scary. after which she held on to me and we went on the track. i got so frustrated over myself cos i just can't seem to control my legs.... argh.... fell a few times on my butt and i swear i am going to get blue blacks all over my ass.... but towards the end of the day... i could at least gilde for certain times while losing my balance occasionally when i lose concentration... hope the next training is better....

i feltso bad the whole day cos i just kept grabbing on to xin until she turned into a cooked lobster at the end of the day.... i think i should bring so ointment for her the next session haha.... how i wish blading is just like cycling lah... so much easier.... nevertheless, skating and blading is fun....

2007-09-03T19:51:00.001+08:00

this is the little naughty kitten of mine. a rather unique shot. this explains why my dad's fishes always go missing...:)

2007-09-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

new found talent: badminton... lol played badminton with nicole, stephanie and hui ying today.... i realised i have not lose my skills despite not playing for more then one year.... i guess this is the only sport that in enjoy playing.... after badminton we met up with rebecca, khiaru and henry for lunch at the deck. seriously i think the food there sucks but i don't know why people always say it is good. i still think my techno edge food is the best.... even the frontier's one taste normal for me... bought structure and fabric for 8.90. i guess this is the only text that cost less than 10 bucks. man feel super broke now. with tutorials piling up, th schedule is getting more and more hectic.... well at least i get to do sth... still wondering what cca to join other than my de club... why is the skating ppl not giving me any replies argh.... or maybe me and xin can join badminton instead...:)

2007-08-27T11:01:00.000+08:00

went over to venture era with my parents on sun.... hmmm i can say that the company i not too bad at least the first impression... lol. my dad signed the consent form but i am still contemplating whether or not to sign the agreement form.... i am still unsure whether i am willing to commit my time in doing sales... bleah someone please enlighten me!!!!!!!!!!!! went for steamboat at my aunt's house after that.... hmmm i can say i didn't do much there cos i was too tired....

oh spotted 2 new korean restaurants at bukit timah plaza on sat.... quite cheap.... maybe i shall try it soon.... looks pretty good. one of it is being run by koreans..... damn cool sia!!!!!!

2007-08-24T19:27:00.000+08:00

went to school for my early lecture solely bleah.... damn dumb lah.... stoned iin the lecture hall for like one an a half hour..... met up with ying xi for brunch after the lecture.... it has been like one and a half years ever since i last saw her.....man nearly couldn't recognise her.... not that her looks changed but is more of her long hair now.... i always remember her having super short hair.... went to the prata shop beside fong seng.... frankly speaking i don't find the food there really nice... i think it is quite normal... it is just a place where nus ppl always hang out. chatted for quite long when i finally say good bye to her... went to MOE. caught up with wil-kie, ivan and loo kang... had a nice "lunch" time with them.... okay they were having their lunch while i just drink my fruit juice... somehow i missed my days in MOE... or maybe i just missed the ppl there....

2007-08-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

the long journey to school allows me to reflect and ponder over lots of stuff of life.... i suddenly realised that life itself is such a miracle... esp when i observed ppl ard me.... somehow, somewhere, one can't help to not believe that there is a god out there watching over you every single second of your life. rendering his endless and merciful love and kindness.... sharing the joys and happiness of your life and carrying you through the obstacles. looking back, i realised life has never been fair to me. but neither has it been unfair. what i had encountered be it good or bad are just God's will and trainings. one learns from mistakes and from challengers one matures physically and mentally.... i guess that's what He wants us to pick up from. deep in my heart i praise the Lord countless time for leading me to CJ where i spent the most fruitful years in my 19 years of living....